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Lotta Lotta Lotta
2005-08-30, 7:58 a.m.
Last Saturday it was...I went at about 10:45 in the morning to an alfalfa field on the edge of Hutchinson, KS. Why? Extra credit. I was able to view (along with many others) a crop art tribute to the new Kansas quarter. On it is a sunflower and a bison. The rest is rather generic to all quarters, the latin at the bottom...and so on. I was actually near the letter "U" at the bottom. I saw a few pictures. I hope to purchase a poster of it (the plane's view). So, know it.
Man, I gotta tell ya...Yesterday I told my friend Quinn (we know about him, he's the one who had a hand, not an actual hand, in me peeing my pants from laughter) that I liked him. He didn't give a response remotely close to what i had hoped. I had hoped for at least some expressed feelings and he didn't even do that. I prodded but still nothing.
...we had been talking about something...I had mentioned Harry Potter, told him he liked it. He said he didn't. I kept teasing...and he said "die"...and that pissed me off. So, I waited a few minutes after abruptly saying g'night and then started talking again...invalidTAi: alright Quinn, that went too far for me, you could have been joking and i just overreacted or not...i was only joking as well, probably trying too hard because i actually like you, alright?
minseybottoms: Alright...
minseybottoms: and yes Iwas joking
invalidTAi: ok
invalidTAi: then i overreacted
minseybottoms: yeah
minseybottoms: jeese
invalidTAi: yes, i admit it
invalidTAi: geez
minseybottoms: jeese
invalidTAi: no
invalidTAi: geez
minseybottoms: jeese
minseybottoms: like jesus
invalidTAi: yeah, but not
invalidTAi: at completely off
minseybottoms: psshh
minseybottoms: whatever
minseybottoms: jeese
minseybottoms: :-)
invalidTAi: i told you
invalidTAi: ugh, my name translated into spanish would be Jesusita
minseybottoms: lmao
minseybottoms: that is awesome
invalidTAi: it's awful
invalidTAi: ok, i gotta know if what i said earlier was stored as information in the manner that i wanted you to take it in... what the hell...what. uhh, i'm not sure if you knew what i meant, so i'm going back to it
minseybottoms: I understood
minseybottoms: But I can't really do antying with that right now
invalidTAi: what do you mean?
minseybottoms: 1:You live in Kansas
minseybottoms: 2:Even if you didn't I would not be ready for anything
invalidTAi: 1) well, i didn't have a long distance relationship mapped out in my head, i do not intend to pressure you into anything of that sort
minseybottoms: I know
invalidTAi: i would just like to know your thoughts on it in general
minseybottoms: I think I like things the way they are
invalidTAi: and how are they?
minseybottoms: They are good
invalidTAi: i mean, what is the situation
minseybottoms: Me making fun of you and you trying, pathetically, to fight back
invalidTAi: hmm
invalidTAi: for some reason i thought i was getting a different vibe
invalidTAi:
minseybottoms: :-D
invalidTAi: ok, logic aside, i need to ask your feelings
minseybottoms: Honey, I'm a scientist Logic aside means "destroy your beliefs"
minseybottoms: My feelings are as follows I like things the way they are
invalidTAi: that's telling me to figure it out on my own
minseybottoms: That's telling you to let it be
minseybottoms: Like the rolling stones song
invalidTAi: Beatles!
minseybottoms: Very nice
invalidTAi: that's a Paul McCartney song
minseybottoms: it was a test
invalidTAi: hardly
minseybottoms: You pased with flying colors
minseybottoms: and I so meant to do that
invalidTAi: you don't know how much i like the Beatles
minseybottoms: Unfortunatly there is alot I don't know
invalidTAi: wow, that sounds like one of my reasons for being selective, when i don't know the person well enough as i would like to in order to feel comfortable going on from there
minseybottoms: Ok those were really badly strung together sentences
minseybottoms: and I did not even close to follow
invalidTAi: i'm saying that i like feeling comfortable talking to someone and knowing about them before i would date them
minseybottoms: oh yeah
minseybottoms: gotcha
invalidTAi: mmhm
invalidTAi: well, i feel exposed
minseybottoms: I feel bloted
invalidTAi: fantastic
minseybottoms: not really
minseybottoms: it kinda hurts
invalidTAi: let it out then
minseybottoms: I don't know how to drain my intestines
minseybottoms: but once I learn I'll let cha know
invalidTAi: sounds good
invalidTAi: Strongbad is not keeping the beat to my Coldplay song that is currently playing
minseybottoms: He's too cool
minseybottoms: He dances to his own beat
invalidTAi: i see that
invalidTAi: ok, i've got to ask some more questions
minseybottoms: aw jeese
minseybottoms: ask away
invalidTAi: sorry, what about that list of things you gave to me? like the right to punch you and what not, why?
minseybottoms: I have no idea
invalidTAi: ah
minseybottoms: Plus that was what? Like 2 years ago?
minseybottoms: I don't remember this morning
minseybottoms: there is no way I can remember why I did something that long ago
invalidTAi: it was a year ago
minseybottoms: see
minseybottoms: I can't even remember how long ago it was
invalidTAi: i see
invalidTAi: brb
minseybottoms: k
invalidTAi: ok
minseybottoms: ok
invalidTAi: yup
invalidTAi: thanks for answering my questions, i don't think i have any more at the moment
minseybottoms: okie dokie
invalidTAi: have you heard "dare" by Gorillaz?
invalidTAi: (yeah, another question, but not the same kind)
minseybottoms: no I have not
minseybottoms: I don't think
invalidTAi: it's an excellent listen if you ever get the chance
minseybottoms: I'll keep that in mind
invalidTAi: good
invalidTAi: actually, i can probably send it to you...
minseybottoms: NO
minseybottoms: I will refuse it
invalidTAi: not by mail
minseybottoms: I hate sending and recieving anything but the written word
minseybottoms: I know
minseybottoms: I don't trust the internet
invalidTAi: ah
minseybottoms: If your computer had as many viruses as mine, you'd be weary too
invalidTAi: this computer is not my own, but i know what you mean
minseybottoms: yeah
invalidTAi: i had a virus that messed up my font size
invalidTAi: every text that appeared on my computer, even the icons, were extremely small, i had to type in the 72 font size just to see it on my screen in maybe 6 pt font
minseybottoms: lol that's nothing
invalidTAi: i've had all of my files deleted too
minseybottoms: I had so many viruses, that every time I tried to turn on my computer, it would shut itself down 1 minute afterward
minseybottoms: I could not even get to the windows screen before it shut down
invalidTAi: geez
invalidTAi: have you heard of Interpol?
invalidTAi: and i don't mean the International Police
minseybottoms: the information agency
invalidTAi: no
minseybottoms: lol
minseybottoms: no then
invalidTAi: bah
invalidTAi: i also advise you to give them an ear
minseybottoms: you would
invalidTAi: i did
invalidTAi: in fact, give them two
invalidTAi: ...my cat now has fleas
minseybottoms: good
invalidTAi: not good
minseybottoms: 2 for me
minseybottoms: none for you
invalidTAi: twix?
invalidTAi: i don't like 'em that much
minseybottoms: you're dead to me
invalidTAi: i'm thinking, how should i respond to that?
minseybottoms: You should take back what you said about my precious precious twix
invalidTAi: you can have the Twins! i don't want any
minseybottoms: Are you offering to show me your breasts
minseybottoms: ?
invalidTAi: what?!
invalidTAi: no!
minseybottoms: lol
minseybottoms: You can have the twins?
minseybottoms: 'The Twins"???
invalidTAi: the Twins/Twix
invalidTAi: there's two!
minseybottoms: of what?
minseybottoms: lol
invalidTAi: two Twix bars in a package
minseybottoms: now you're talking about my package
invalidTAi: lol
minseybottoms: you should just cool down there horn dog
invalidTAi: i am not
invalidTAi: hey!
invalidTAi: i'm not coming on to you
minseybottoms: Sure
invalidTAi: i am not
minseybottoms: And I do'nt like twix
minseybottoms: whatever
minseybottoms: lol
invalidTAi: i don't like Twix
invalidTAi: i don't name body parts either
invalidTAi: getting tired?
minseybottoms: meh
minseybottoms: kinda
invalidTAi: yeah, i bet it's nearing your bedtime
minseybottoms: eat shit and die
invalidTAi: i'd rather not
invalidTAi: i was implying that you go to bed early by choice, i know
minseybottoms: ah
minseybottoms: indeed
minseybottoms: well going to bed early has not been working out
minseybottoms: my insomnia came back
invalidTAi: oh
minseybottoms: so I'm going to bed late again
invalidTAi: sorry to hear that
minseybottoms: yeah
invalidTAi: do you have any other options?
minseybottoms: options?
invalidTAi: yes
invalidTAi: what you can do about it
invalidTAi: to try and fix it
minseybottoms: go to bed late
invalidTAi: nothing else?
minseybottoms: nothing
minseybottoms: I've tried it all
invalidTAi: damn
minseybottoms: the later I go to bed the faster I go to sleep
invalidTAi: ok
minseybottoms: and if I don't go t obed late I can't go to sleep
invalidTAi:
minseybottoms: bones to you, craster
minseybottoms: i hope you are a total bitch
minseybottoms: HOORAY!
invalidTAi: i wish i could eat the salt off of your last bitter (mumble mumble)
invalidTAi: the subway she is a porno
invalidTAi: pavements, they are a mess
invalidTAi: if it were up to me now, turn on the bright lights
invalidTAi: i went to Liverpool, England to see the Beatles museum
minseybottoms: awesome
invalidTAi: it was
invalidTAi: you're making me look bad, Panda Jerk!
minseybottoms: ok I guess sleepy time
minseybottoms: or at least I'll try
invalidTAi: ok
invalidTAi: good luck
minseybottoms: thanks
minseybottoms: night
invalidTAi: mmhm, g'night
minseybottoms signed off at 12:12:43 AM.
Perhaps you read that.
Well, it's disappointing but I'm going to be fine. I am fine. I'm certainly not obsessed with him and I can continue on close to how it was before. I think that a lot of our conversations had playful flirting going on...but I can't tell you what he thinks. If he's not really ready, that's fine. I understand that. The only two relationships I've had were long distance and the first one we had never met together in person. I don't want another long distance relationship right now, or at least not too far. I'm rather picky. I admire his maturity. Quinn is three years younger than me but he might as well be older, it feels like he is. Also, I noticed that I go by feelings more than logic and he goes by logic more than feelings. I think I can understand both sides but I choose feelings. I talk about my feelings all the time, whether I'm talking about someone's art or how my day went.
I think I tend to go for picky guys. The guys I have liked or dated don't always need to be in a relationship or with someone to feel good about themselves. One decided to decline someone he really liked so he could keep his sight on his goals. That's really strong. That's taking logic over feelings.
It will almost be a year since I've been in a relationship and I'm ok with that. I still want to get to know someone in my Computer Graphic Design and Drawing 1 class...he seems quiet. he sits next to me in Drawing (we can sit pretty much wherever we want) and he intimidates me with his exceptional artistic abilities. He's also very good in Computer Design... Interesting.
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