Shipped
2006-04-09, 10:06 p.m.
I'd like to not be lonely. I don't really care if starting a relationship ends it, I just don't want that lonely feeling.
I called the number of Andrew. He is no longer living there, I knew that...but I was unable to get his new number in California. I'll have to call back to get it in a few days. I wonder how long I should wait.
I continue on. Sometimes I feel really down when I think about how I wanted to be in a relationship with Paul but couldn't. I'd very much like to be just his friend and feel nothing more...but knowing someone so well and talking to them for so long...don't you just develop feelings for them knowing you're trusted with so much? I don't know how this works.