Go back to sleep
2006-05-12, 2:34 a.m.
I feel really distraught right now. I'm crying because of my ideals. I idealize too much. I can't live up to it. An entry seemed so much better when I was lying on my bed.
I feel lonely still. I hide it from probably everybody.
I think I'll feel lonlier in Wichita. I don't want to bother with parties and feeling accepted...but I'm lonely. I would like a relationship. I idealize too much. I won't find one.