I've gotten a bit too uhm, how do I say this? I'm trying to think of the word I'm looking for to describe how my writing has become in this diary. Maybe I never really wrote my feelings but I realize it more now... I just state the "facts" as I know them and I don't even report on all that falls into my life. Not always do I want to think about them and therefore not always will I contiously remember what happened to make me feel. A few nights ago I analyzed my handwriting on a web site. This has interested me much for about a year now, I've done minimal research at the library and from what I can lazily find on the Internet.
I also had to write the sample that was analyzed in cursive so maybe that contributed since I only write in print unless I have to sign my "signature". Bah.
...one thing I can definetly tell you that's true: I keep my feelings bottled up inside or I choose to ignore them so I won't hurt someone else. I'm selective in who I tell what to. Though I do tell the truth it's not always all of it (in reference to my feelings). And when I do get mad I really do because that means that certain person has pushed way too many buttons.
...Maybe since I always keep in mind that I choose to be happy I just shove aside all other feelings (publically...that a word?) anyway. Some things I just don't share yet.
11:17 p.m. - 2004-02-15