Fuck. I know I'm in no relationship with Paul and I know he will flirt with girls and tell me about it...I understand it. So, why do I have a sinking feeling when I hear of it happening?
I don't like this. It's great being friends first then starting a relationship, but then you know your heart will be in it that much deeper...
I know I'm closer and probably rank higher, but maybe I'm trying to make sure that I'm worth it to him in every way. I don't feel as if I am. Sex or not.
9:17 p.m. - 2006-03-30